Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Jupiter

Here's the thing about being a Sagittarius in a relationship- we are known for being loyal and adventurous. We are the only sign which has both of these qualities; every other sign possesses only one.
When we get in deep enough, I think it's just the sheer idea of not being able to see an exit sign from where we're sitting that terrifies us.
We're also known for expecting too much from people, and then getting bored when they don't meet our expectations. I read things like this and think it sounds pretty spot on, and then I think... goodness, what a pain in the ass.
They say Sagittarians are really only meant for each other. Sometimes I think that's true, and then other times I don't know how there would ever be room for two of me in a relationship. I'd probably run away.
I think the most someone like me can really hope for is to find a person who, instead of needing to escape from me, will escape with me.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Mirrors

My best friend is visiting from San Fransisco. Since she moved, we've gone as much as a whole year without seeing each other. When we do, though, it's like she never left. True friendships really do stand the test of time and distance. We discussed our appearances a lot, and as she regaled me with her stories of weight gain and loss, hair colors and cuts, I realized she's never looked any different to me- just beautiful.
I saw an old voice teacher a couple days ago, and the connection we once had was so broken that I hardly recognized her. It was like the time I spent with her never even happened- I'd spent far more time repairing the emotional damage from that relationship than reaping the benefits of what she taught me. After two years of reflection and growth on my part, she looked like a completely different person to me.
Do your visual perceptions of people change as your relationships do? Mine certainly do, in a big way. As I grow to love someone, their flaws slowly disappear, and they just simply look beautiful to me. It works the other way too though- sometimes what I once saw as beautiful turns into a flaw. Lovely blond hair suddenly looks too bright, merely a distraction from more meaningful subjects.
There is someone in my life who I feel has stopped seeing my beauty. They glide over my joy and consistently arrive at my mistakes, my negativity. As I continue spending more and more time with this person, I wonder if I'll begin to see myself in that way. I don't know if it's just a stage they're going through, or if I'm merely being too sensitive. Or, if it's true and does in fact continue, will it cause me to lose my love for myself?
There is a lot to be said for surrounding yourself with people who love you. Make sure they really do see you in a positive light, because it's easy to start to see their image as your own reflection.